Through ironically colourful colourblind eyes....

5/30/2005 11:03:00 AM

Star Wars

Until recently I was not a big star wars fan. I never saw the old movies at the time they came out, and only saw bits and pieces of them when TBS had those Star Wars marathons. And even then it did not garner enough interest for me to sit down and watch them from start finish. The Litesabres were cool. Very cool. But that was about it. I saw Episode I and II. They were bleh. I dont remember a thing from Episode I, that alone should tell you what I thought of it. And the only thing I remember from Episode II was Yoda fighting. The litesabres were cool too. But since there was soooo much hype surrounding Episode III, enough to garner a worldwide release, I decided I was going to sit down and really watch Episode II again, and watch it much more carefully, not for the Litesabres, not for Yoda fighting, not for all the various space creatures, but for the story line. After watching Episode II again I understood more of the story, and was now curious about Episode III. So I went to see it last night.

I am now a DIE HARD Star Wars fan. The story is fascinating. The whole concept of the Force, the philosophies of using the Force, and the Dark side...on one hand I kind of agree with the Chancellor Palpatine's reasoning of using both sides of the Force, but on the other hand I can understand the dangers of partaking such a venture. I still dont know if Anakin Skywalker is Evil or is just a misguided individual. And oh yeah, Litesabres are cool. Very cool. Right about now I am ITCHING to see Episodes 4, 5 and 6 in their entirety. Anyone have that DVD collection in their possession by any chance??

5/21/2005 01:33:00 AM

Strike while the iron is hot

Make use of time; Let not advantage slip;Beauty within itself should not be wasted.Fair flowers that are not gathered in their prime,Rot and consume themselves in little time.
- Shakespeare (sonnet) Venus and Adonis

5/17/2005 12:10:00 AM

Movie listing

So my friend Hayden is copying my tactic to take over the blogging world, by starting a topic on his blog and hoping other people will start the same topic on theirs. While I do not consider him a threat to my master plans, I will however help him out a little bit and start the topic he hopes we all will start. Hey, im feeling charitable. So, here is my list of top picks.

Note: my memory is horrible, all the films will not come to me at one time, so I will update the list as I remember them. I should also warn you that im kinda weird in my picking of movies, I will see things in them most people would not see, and hence love them for reasons most other people probably wouldn’t understand. Anyway, here we go, in no certain order:

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
LOTR (all 3)
Matrix (first one)
Fight Club
Finding Nemo
The Incredibles
Poetic Justice
Rocky 1, 2 & 4
Face Off
Spiderman I
Kill Bill
Pulp Fiction
Ace Ventura, Pet Detective
John Q
Bad Boys
The Rock
Romeo and Juliet (The new one)
The Day the Earth stood still
War of the Worlds
It’s a wonderful life
The Abyss

There are also a couple movies I have seen that while wouldnt qualify as a favourite are worth mentioning

Honourable mentions:

The Returnerer
Naked Weapon
21 grams
28 days later
No Good Deed
Natural Born Killers
The Butterfly Effect
High Fidelity
A bronx Tale

5/16/2005 10:38:00 AM


It was never meant to be conquered, but embraced.

5/13/2005 12:05:00 PM


Good Stuff--------being told by a straight girl that youre cute

Great Stuff-------being told by a lesbian that youre cute

5/09/2005 10:10:00 AM

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

If you somehow had the ability to see into the future, to be able to see the results of the decisions you make on a day-to-day basis, would you still make those decisions even if you didnt know how it was going to turn out in the long run?

That is essentially what this movie, "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" is about. I caught the last 45 min - 1 hour of the movie some time ago, wanted to watch the entire movie before I made a blog about it but I havent been able to catch it. Basically the lead character (played by Jim Carrey) learns that his ex-girlfriend went through a procedure to erase memories of him and their relationship. So he decides to do the same. Basically throughout most of the movie we are seeing whats going on in Jim's mind. The procedure erases the memories from the most recent backward. So we are seeing the memories of his relationship when things were bad, how low he was feeling, etc etc. Then we begin to see memories of good times, happy times. He tries to hold on to one particularly happy memory, not wanting that one to go, but inevitably it gets erased. This trend continues with more good memories he finds. Realizing he does not in fact want to forget his ex-girlfriend, we see him "running away" with her from the disappearing memories, trying to hide her, so she doesnt get erased. But inevitably, it happens.

Another character, a college student, tries to start an affair with a married college professor (who developed the technology), only to realize she already started the affair, and went throught the procedure to forget it ever happened. She then breaks into the Professor's office, and takes the interviews of all his clients that did the procedure and delivers them to all the clients. These interviews are done before the procedure, basically the clients outline why they want the procedure done.

Back to Jim Carrey's character...somehow, after the procedure he and his ex girlfriend start dating again. They then encounter the tapes of their interview….they hear their reasons for doing the procedure, they hear all the bad things that were going on in their previous relationship, how they were both better people before they met each other, how they hated who they were in the latter part of the relationship, how its doomed to fail……and they decide to continue anyway.

Basically what I got from this movie is that “its not the destination, it’s the journey”. Its like life…someday we all gonna die, no matter who we are the destination is the same…the only thing that separates us is the journey. Sometimes we put too much emphasis on where we are going to end up and not enough emphasis on the actual journey, not realizing that the lessons learnt on the journey is more than likely more valuable than the destination itself. We all have painful memories, events that we would love to forget ever happened because its so painful, but like the college student who had the affair with the professor, if you don’t know your past mistakes you are doomed to repeat them.

Lesson: never forget your past. Learn from past mistakes, but at the same time never forget the reasons you were embarking on the journey in the first place. When looking back at the journey, you can choose to remember the good times, or you can choose to remember the bad times. But choose you must, forgetting altogether is not advisable.

Choose wisely.

Have a good trip.

5/09/2005 01:39:00 AM


Easy to fall asleep.......hard to stay asleep

Work at a phone company........yet barely use the phone

Lover of music.......yet hard of hearing (irregularly shaped ear canal)

Born with blue eyes, changed to hazel-green.......yet colourblind

Like colour photography..........yet colourblind

Like working alone.....yet hate being alone

Hate talking about myself......yet have a strong narcissistic streak

Have trouble feeling emotions......yet I feel the music when arranging, feel the photo when shooting

Love the sweet, moving sounds of the classical piano.......and the most violent hardcore dancehall/gangsta rap

Dream when im awake..........yet never when im asleep

5/01/2005 02:47:00 AM

The Nice Guy Syndrome

Disclaimer: the views expressed here are of my own opinion and based on personal experiences and those of other individuals I have observed. If i have offended anyone...tough. Grow a skin you too sensitive.

Im sure most of you have heard of the 'Nice Guy' syndrome. This is a social disease that affects relations between the male and female species of the human population.
Symptoms are as follows:
1) You are a gentleman
2) You do not see all women as sex objects
3) You treat all women with the utmost respect all the time
4) You assume women mean exactly what they say all the time
5) You tend to play the role of 'knight in shining armor' when there is a damsel seemingly in distress
6) You are 'understanding' all the time
7) You only have eyes for her
8) You think all if not most men are dogs and are lucky to have a relationship with a good woman
9) You think most if not all women are angels and can do no wrong
10) You shower your girlfriend with attention all the time
11) For advice on women you go to other women
12) Your female friends refer to you as 'such a good friend' or 'you are like a brother', even the ones you have shown romantic interest. This is a surefire symptom of the Nice Guy syndrome and is the beginning of the end.
13) You are more in touch with your feminine side than with your masculine side
14) You cater to her needs and ignore your own
If you have half or more of the symptoms listed above, you may be suffering from the Nice Guy Syndrome. Sticky pon you.


Many factors make you more likely to contract this deadly social disease:
- You have more female friends than male friends, or hang around with females more. Hence you are constantly around to hear discussions belitting the male species and may start to believe some of it. You hear the laments about what they want and dont want in a good man and assume that that is what they really want. Hence you begin to alter your personality in a way
that fits such criteria as outlined by said females.
- Lack of a strong father presence in the home. While single mothers have done a fantastic job raising children on their own, some tend to raise their male children in a fashion that they think men should be, instilling certain values. For a listing of these values please refer to symptoms 1 through 7 as outlined above.
- The media (television, film, music, novels) tells us every day that men should give everything of themselves for the woman they love, that you as the man should bring the sun the moon and the stars and place it at her feet. And hope that she likes it and gives you the time of day. Or, that husbands who are overweight, bumbling, idiotic and clumsy, and wives who are young, attractive, and smart, is a normal stereotypical matrimonial home. Examples of this can be seen every day on cable television with programmes such as Home Improvement, Everybody loves Raymond, King of Hearts, and even animated programmes such as The Simpsons.
- When your female friends say things like "Oh youre so sweet" "that was so nice of you" in response to certain actions, and you keep doing said actions, even if it is to your detriment.


Stage 1 - The 'Fuck off' stage
Every man has certain desires. However any man with the Nice Guy Syndrome has a little voice in their head that tells them to ignore those desires and be a 'nice guy'. Whenever a female with a low cut top bends down in front of you to pick up something that little voice says "Be respectful, look away". Whenever a girl is chatting away the little voice says "she's expressing her feelings about something, pay attention and listen" even though youd rather be watching your favourite tv show. Whenever there is a shortage of chairs and there are women around the little voice says "give up your seat, you stand". That little voice that says "pick up the tab", "give her flowers, candy, presents, even though she never does and probably will never return such gestures", "do not ogle at women, even if they are scantily clad and have perfect bodies and are
practically begging for attention" etc etc. You know the drill. Whenever you find yourself in a situation with another female, and you hear that voice telling you to do something contrary to what your instincts tell you--------tell that voice to 'Fuck off'. Until this stage has been completed, future stages will be unsuccessful.

Stage 2 - Realization stage
Realize that women are no more deserving of special treatment than men are. Realize that women are just as bad as men, theyre just better at hiding it and hence give the illusion that they are angels.

Stage 3 - Get in touch with your masculine side
Men do not want a woman who is 6 feet tall, with a muscular build, deep voice, aggressive etc etc. Similarly women do not want a man who is soft, sensitive, expresses his feelings, loves pink, has little hearts drawn all over his notebooks etc etc. Be a man, dammit. Scratch, sometimes. Drink beer and watch sports with the guys, sometimes. Ogle and make comments, sometimes. If you never look at other women, your current woman will think you will never look at her that way. And do you think God gave women breasts and hips and curves that cause them to be shopping around frustrating themselves cause they cant find that pair of jeans that fit them 'just right' or cant wear that gorgeous top cause it dont fit them just right, for you NOT to look at them?? Be aggressive, sometimes. Women like to know that you can get buck wild and handle you business when some fassy comes along trying to get all up in y'all's bizness. Women will never know if youre capable of such if youre constantly holding their hand and giving them flowers and presents and calling them cute little names like "honeybun" and

Stage 4 - Player mentality
Players always have women because they are confident in themselves and their abilities and are not afraid of being rejected by a woman. They tend to cater to their own needs and not the woman's needs. They tend to have big egos. This combination tends to be attractive to most women (I dont know why, thats how it is apparently). Observe players, how they move, their
tactics, then adopt some of them and adjust as to your own personality. Note: do not become a player. Simply emulate some of their tactics.

I dont know if there are any other stages, right now im somewhere between stage 3 and 4. If there are anymore i'll let you

Earlier I had listed some symptoms of Nice Guy Syndrome as values that single mothers may instill in their sons. This does not mean that a man not suffering from the disease must not have said values, however the values should be as follows:
1) You are a gentleman...only to women who have EARNED and as such are deserving of such treatment. Family members have automatically earned such treatment, the eldery (not just eldery women) automatically deserve such treatment. Every other female in the world has to earn it.
2)You do not see all women as sex objects.....all the time. As mentioned before, on occasions your woman will want you to 'ogle' at her, but she wont think you do that if you dont do it with other women some of the time. And no female is stupid enough to think that you would find her and only her attractive.
3) You treat all women with the utmost respect all the time.......see #1
4) You assume women mean exactly what they say all the time....women have a known history of saying one thing and doing another. Realize this. Accept this. Remember women are ruled by their emotions, men by logics. There are occasions when certain emotions in certain situations are illogical.
5) You tend to play the role of 'knight in shining armor' when there is a damsel seemingly in distress...this has to do with placing women on a pedestal as outined by the media that men should. Once you have gone thru Stage 2 you will realize that some woman deserve what dem get and dont deserve a knight.
6) You are 'understanding' all the time....your needs are just as important. Sometimes she is the one that needs to be understanding
7) You only have eyes for her......see #2

If you think that after doing all this you will be seen by some females as arrogant, pompous, egotisical, etc....dont worry too much. Nobody's perfect, and you being an ass will make women feel better about expressing their bitchy side. Yes, I said it. All women are bitches, sometimes. And if you deny them that right by being a nice guy all the time, therefore making them feel guilty whenever theyre bitchy to you (cause hey, if youre a nice guy you didnt do anything to deserve being bitched, right?) they wont like being around you too much after a while.

I really should have some closing arguments after this long thing I jus write but me tired so cant bother, im going to bed.

Looking forward to the comments....